Thursday 7 June 2012

I am sick...

Poor little blog thing, you have been so ignored for such a long time! I haven't even been reading what everyone else has been up to. I have more cysts in my liver. And that has totally shot the shit out of me. I was just beginning to feel better, recovering from the major surgery of December, recovering from maybe YEARS of that HUGE liver cyst growing and being so debilitating. My GP reckons that perhaps the diagnosis of Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia post meningitis five years ago was due more to the liver cyst than the post-viral symptoms. I was beginning to do stuff. I even tackled the ironing basket and got half that put away. It is more "Ironing Mountain" than basket of stuff. So the linen closet was full of lovely smooth pillow slips, and a basket in the kitchen with pretty tea towels. It is growing again... I even started tackling some of the housework crap that for the last year was just filed in the Too Hard drawer. I knew something was up when I couldn't eat more than two prawns and had to hand over my dessert to my S3 to finish at my nephew's wedding a month ago. And that the middle-aged spread was beginning to happen again around my belly. And that I have put on a couple of kilos, too. So I went back to my GP, and I am back on the medical merry-go-round. There are TWO of the fuckers this time. Two that 10 months ago were measured in millimetres and are now 4 and 7 centimetres. Bastards. Bloody, bloody bastard bastards. I am so miserable about being sick again. And just after I bundled all those maternity clothes off to the op shop, too. I hope this doesn't take until December cos that will be another year wasted.i got so lively I even started thinking that I could even worka PROPER job (ooooh, money would be so lovely. I am all so very over not having enough $$$ to last from one fortnight to the next. I eat a lot of toast...). I initially had a couple of ultrasounds to do a rough check on the livr which found the cysts. And also found a very tender lump in my left breast. So Tuesday to Bendigo for a mammogram and another ultrasound, as well as a CT scan with contrast etc on my liver. Fortunately, there is nothing sinister in my breast. Is just maybe fibrous tissue. I haven't got to see the radiologist's report yet, just going on what the radiographer told me. And that they didn't go into any sort of panic mode when they did the procedure. And now I am awaiting a note from St Vincent's hospital in Melbourne to let me know they are so anxious to not only see my face but my belly.And chop holes in it. I HAVE been sittin' and knittin' a lot lately. If you are on Ravelry you can have a look at what I have been up to. I am AuntieJappa. Actually there are quite a few things that I made that aren't (yet!) on Ravelry either. I even dyed a lot of porridge coloured 5 ply pure wool. Laboriously winding it into skeins before hitting to up with some lovely deep purple. Got about 2kgs so that should be enough to make something pretty Lush! I shall keep you posted...

9 comments:

Kate said...

Oh Jas - life can be so crap!! Sorry, sorry, sorry to hear your news....Any silver lining? Can you be a centrefold in Liver Monthly or something??? Have dishy doctors gagging to have a gander at you? Am keeping everything crossed for you.

Shirley said...

Jas I am so sorry to hear that you are not well again. Keep that humour of yours and vent that anger anyhow you see fit and don't let them make you wait for treatment - demand it. Meanwhile keep on knitting. Wish there was something I could do for you.

Quiltbug said...

paryers are on the way from Canada. I'm not much of a prayer person but your health needs a big boost from someone bigger than me. Take care and know that all of your friends are thinking of you.

Maria said...

Sorry to hear that you aren't well Jasmine. Hopefully treatment will be a lot quicker than last time :-)

WATTLE GIRL said...

Poor darling. you have my sympathy. Those Fibros things in your breast. they call em White Mice. dont ask me why. but they nip like bloody mice. Ask me how I know. Panadol helps when they are very active. I am told it is a common thing in women our age. Goody Goody. You impresssed like I am ?

sallyh said...

Jaz, that's rotten news - I always watch out for your blog updates and have been worrying because of the extended silence. Love your humour and attitude - keep it up girl, it'll see you on the road to good health again very soon, I'm sure. Keep us all in the loop as there are a lot of us who care.

Ozjane said...

made the comment to someone recently that I have not been into Google Reader for a while...playing games instead...this is really more fun.
Sorry to hear the bad news. I spent last week imagining dire things only to find it was bad but sort of known bad. So all is well except I feel a nasty virus / cold thing coming on and have half this room out in the dining area.
Oh well.....it can wait.

Daphne said...

Hey Jasmine - so sorry to hear your liver is not behaving again. Must be awful for you. I hope getting something done about it will be a lot quicker this time - darned public health system :(. Anyway, take care and I hope it won't be too long before you're well again. Daphne Freke x

AnnieO said...

Blasted awful boomerang that's clobbered your liver again! I know it is common for cysts to reform but this entirely uncalled for, so soon. Hope by now you have had some news from Melbourne. Sending good healthy thoughts and plenty of cheer...